I desperately need to get back to the PTA project, but I'm having some trouble focusing on it, for a couple of reasons.
First: After hovering around the 47-48-49 pound mark for a couple of weeks, I finally crossed over.
As of today’s weigh-in, it’s official: I have lost over 50 pounds.
I find this mind-boggling. I mean, that’s a significant amount of weight. It’s kind of like giving birth to an 8-year-old child.
But I don't feel particularly celebratory. That's because just prior to my weigh-in, my daughter and I had another homework-related drama.
Her English teacher assigned her a project, which was originally due last Friday. It was a relief when the deadline was extended to tomorrow. Great, right? Now she had the weekend to get it done.
Of course, her Saturdays are kind of shot, because she trains from 11:00 a.m. to 4:00 p.m.
Still, she had Sunday to work on it. I even told her she could skip Hebrew school.
Sunday morning came, and she wanted to relax and watch a little TV. I reminded her of the project. She promised she would do it.
But then, she wanted to try out the new Endless Ocean game that arrived last week for our Wii. Again, I reminded her of the project. She promised she would do it.
After lunch, she went to her room to work on the project.
And she fell asleep. She took a two-hour nap on Sunday afternoon, because she was tired.
You have to remember that this is a kid who trains from 4:00 to 8:00 Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, plus goes to Hebrew school from 4:00 to 6:30 on Thursdays (and 10:30 to 1:00 on most Sundays).
By the time we drive home and have dinner, there isn't a lot of time for homework. Most of her teammates stay up until 10 or 11 to do theirs, but my daughter is like me in that her brain shuts down at night. We're both a lot fresher in the moning. So on most school days, she spends her breaks trying to get a head start and then gets up around 5:00 a.m. to finish her assignments.
She never started the project. She concluded that she would be able to get it done today. (Tuesdays are the one day of the week when she doesn't have to do anything after school. It is also the day that school ends an hour early, so she gets a lot more time. Also, her teachers have been assigning very light work on Tuesdays.)
I reminded her that this was a gamble. She felt confident about taking it.
I know. It's a horrible schedule. When she was little, I was considered the overprotective mom, because I was the only one in our group that deliberately limited her child's extracurricular activities to one afterschool class per week -- because I didn't want her to get overextended.
Then we tried gymnastics, and the rest is history.
It started out as one hour per week, then 90 minutes per week, then two 2-hour classes per week. And then, she was selected to be on the pre-team. It snuck up on me. And yes, I could have said no, but what would you do if you discovered that your child had a real talent for something -- and the passion to pursue it? Would you discourage it? Or would you vow to give her as much support as she needed to take it as far as she wanted to go?
When she was in elementary school, it was easy. I had a relationship with her teachers, who also had more time to get to know her. They knew her to be a hard worker and a perfectionist (good qualities in a gymnast). They would cut her a little slack, either by giving us the weeks' assignments ahead of time so we could manage her time, or by allowing her to turn them in late if she was a little bit behind.
Middle school is a whole different animal. Her teachers (who I like and respect and think are really good teachers) do not tolerate late assignments. It doesn't matter how she does them, she gets a 0 for the assignment if it's turned in late. In one of her classes, they gave her TWO textbooks, and she once completed an assignment from the WRONG book. She got a 0. And a grade that might have been an A was marked down to a B, with a remark on her report card that she has trouble completing her homework.
So when she took that nap on Sunday, I didn't really want to disturb her. She was obviously tired. She NEEDED to sleep more than she needed to work on the project.
Yesterday, she reported that her homework load "wasn't bad." She awoke at 5:00 a.m. and finished at 6:15. And then, she crawled back into bed. "I'm tired," she sighed.
I tried to rouse her at 6:45. Then again at 7:00. I cajoled her. I stuck the pet cats on her. I told her sternly that she needed to get up NOW or we would be late.
I asked her if she was feeling sick. (No, just tired.)
At 7:15, I lost my temper and started to scream, GET OUT OF BED, NOW!!!
Which made her cry. Which made me feel terrible. I took her in my arms and apologized for yelling at her. She continued to cry.
"The project is due tomorrow."
Uh, yeah. We know that.
"There's a lot more work than I thought. I need to write pages and pages of definitions."
I was frustrated now. This was one of the few instances when she was given ample time to do a project. The fact that she's not ready is her fault. I also don't think it's that big a deal. If she turns it in late, or it's not perfect, what's the worst thing that could happen?
"I'll get a yellow slip!" she cried. OK. So what does that mean?
It means she gets a 0 for the project. The next time she doesn't turn something in, she gets a blue slip. The time after that, she gets paper pick-up duty and a trip to the school office.
"I only have a B in that class. If I don't turn this in, I'll have a C," she cried.
I told her that if she got a C because of this one missed assignment, I wouldn't be upset with her. I told her that her middle school grades didn't really count; that high school is the one we need to worry about. She just shook her little tear-stained head.
"I can't get a C," she cried.
Now my temporary reasonableness turned back to frustration. We can't keep having this conversation, I told her. Something has to give, I said. We either quit gymnastics (the look of horror on her face told me that this wasn't an option) or look into a charter school that might be willing to allow her a study period instead of her unneccessary PE class. This is something many people have told me is a possibility at a charter -- but again, she shook her head. She has friends at this school and overall, is happy there.
Or we homeschool, I told her. That last one is a bluff. My husband and daughter are both adamant against it, even though I see it as the only way we can have our gymnastics cake and eat it, too.
Then, I'm going to have to have a conference with your teachers, I told her. This is something I've talked about for a long time, but she keeps begging me NOT to schedule one. Besides, I wanted to finish reading the Stop Homework book I ordered a couple of weeks ago, so I might have some good strategies to use with them. "They'll make me come in for it," she cried. "I don't want to be there when you talk to them."
Well, we have to do something, I sighed.
At 7:30, she got out of bed and ten minutes later, we were out the door. And after I dropped her at school, I made an appointment to conference with her teachers. She only has to be in the conference if I request it.
The conference is Thursday morning, and now that I've scheduled it, I'm at a loss. I'm not a confrontational person. I'm almost as horrified at having to do this as my daughter.
For one thing, I'm not hopeful that it will do much good. We've been with LAUSD for seven years now, and I even worked for them for a couple of years (part time at Megan's old school). It is about as rigid a bureaucracy as they come, and the pressures put on the District by NCLB and state testing standards gives them even less flexibility. I mean, what are they going to say? They will tell me that they have standards, that the school is trying to instill excellence in all their students, and that the real problem is her extracurricular activities. Get rid of those and we have no problem.
If my child had a disability, they would be legally bound to make some accomomodations for her. But instead, my child has a gift for a sport, and the school has no interest in acommodating that. I have been tempted to wheedle our doctor into writing a note stating that as a training gymnast, she shouldn't take PE because running a mile a day on asphalt is doing harm to her joints. I don't want to make light of children who need accommodations, but I dream of getting her an IEP, because dammit, she also has special needs and that might be my only legal way to get them to cut her some slack.
I really am very frustrated. As it is, we've been cutting her workouts short so she can do homework, which means she's been missing training on the event she most needs to work on (bars), which head coach keeps scheduling for her group last. I'm frustrated with him for being as rigid as the school district. I'm frustrated because I see my daughter being so stressed that she doesn't want to go to school. I'm frustrated because I see ways to improve the situation and everyone around me tells me that they shouldn't be considered as options. I'm frustrated because all I get from the other members of my family is complaints about this situation but no help in trying to find a solution.
And now I have to go into this teacher's conference on Thursday morning. I guess I'd better finish that book.
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