My Inaugural high is over; life is back to normal -- which means I'm looking at a two-page list of "to-do"s and feeling overwhelmed.
The workload from the virtual assistant job I took in the fall diminished over the holidays and I started feeling like I had a handle on things. I was able to write in this blog and contribute to (most of) the other ones I write for AND keep up on work.
That's changed. It's January, and my boss is getting down to BUSINESS.
Unfortunately, I only have so much brain power. Theoretically, I can use the mornings (when I am most lucid) to write and then switch on over to the clerical and web stuff in the afternoon and evening when I don't need as much creative energy.
It's not working out that way. I have deadlines and I need to meet them and I can't focus on the creative stuff (the blogs) until I feel I'll have the work done on time. It nags at me and I end up doing that instead of this.
"It's money," my husband keeps reminding me.
Yeah. I don't need to be reminded that the economy sucks, or that his salary has been cut or that we cannot feel confident that he will still have a job in six months. Every time I turn on the TV or radio or even just tweet with my friends, I am reminded that the country is in trouble and things are going to get worse before they get better.
I'm considering giving up my stay-at-home status and looking for a "real" job: full-time, outside the house, morning commute... the works. I may not have a choice.
The prospect is both exhilarating... and frightening. I've been out of the traditional work force for 10 years now. Where I was once the office tech guru, my computer skills and experience are no longer an advantage because EVERYONE has them. In fact, I'm probably behind now, as I no longer feel the need (or have the disposable income) to constantly update my software and hardware.
Most frightening of all: I am in my 50's and would have to convince (much younger) prospective bosses that I still have the chops to keep up with 20-year-olds. And I still have the same issues that prompted me to stay at home in the first place: a kid who needs me. She may not need me in the same ways (she's turning 13, after all!), but I still need a modicum of flexibility to handle her transportation to school and activities, medical needs, etc.
And then I really would be hard pressed to do the writing that I love.
Okay, I'm done whining.
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